An annoucement

Well, It's been a while since I updated you faithful readers. Let's just say it's been a busy month and a half. The end of school is always crazy but both Justin and I went on separate trips the last week of the kids' school. He to Mississippi and I went to Italy with my dad and Kareena. We both had a good time on our respective trips. It was when we got back that the real fun began.

I had suspected while I was gone that I might be pregnant so when I got home I took a test I happened to have. (Doesn't everyone have an extra one lying around?) So, surprise! It was positive. Before we told anyone I took a second one in the Target bathroom - which my girls thought was CRAZY. Again, positive. So we are adding a 5th Irving to our already full house. I am not announcing it on Facebook quite yet so feel free to send me a message. The kids are all really excited and Justin and I are getting used to the idea.

Struggle, Struggle, Struggle

So I planned on one meal for Mother's Day weekend which turned into quite a few "off-plan" foods. AHHHHH! I just posted a comment of a fellow dieters blog in essence saying that I struggle so much with my emotions and that if I just had fewer of them I may not struggle quite so much.

So, what is the answer? I think it's this: forget yesterday and begin again afresh tomorrow.

I will take my pills when I am supposed to. I will drink all my water - all 80 oz. of it. I will not eat anything impulsively but I will tell myself the correct things ie I don't need that bowl of cereal right now, or I can wait until I get home to eat something that is on my plan.

This weekend poses another challenge. We are going to a camp up north as a church for a retreat. Ah, I am so weak. Lord, help me.

Month One

Well, I feel like I just ran a long race then realized that I just turned the corner to see blocks and blocks spread out in front of me. Now, I did run the race, that is good, but the race is still on!!

I've lost 13 pounds and 18 inches total for the month. Again, this is really good but I feel like there is still so far to go!!

I am going to enjoy at least one "real" meal - with dessert this weekend in honor of Mother's Day. My thinking is really changing, though! I threw something away because I really didn't like it, when in the past I would have just eaten it anyway.

9 and 1/4 lb and a major slip up

So I almost jumped in the air today when I saw the scale! I was on cloud nine all day then I went to Starbucks to get the boys (my son and his friend) a cookie and I had a VERY weak moment and had one of their morning buns. I have to admit that it tasted great going down. But then I took a drink and the taste was gone. Then the guilt set in.

So much of this diet has been saying no, sometimes NO!, to many of the bad habits I've been cultivating for years. I've cheated in the past 3 and 1/2 weeks but not to this extent. I love that tomorrow is a new day and that there is grace for not being perfect.

My pants are loose!

It is so satisfying to wear clothes that I haven't been able to for a while.

6 lbs!!!!!

For some people this might not be a lot but the tears and struggles seem worth it when I see the results on the scale. Last weekend was not so great but since Monday I've been almost perfect. The victories have felt sooo satisfying. I dished up ice cream for Caleb and didn't have any. I ordered a skinny latte and didn't buy something for me at Starbucks. I've said no to stopping at DQ numerous times. The advice that has made the most sense is to take it one day at a time. Again, not rocket science but it has helped me.

temptation

I now have a week under my belt (which is shrinking a bit - yeah) and I think the diet is working but it won't be easy. Getting used to taking all the pills has been a challenge but I think they have given me a lot of energy. Unfortunately my stomach has been upset for a day or so now. Hopefully that will improve.